The guilt, the shame– the consequences no person speaks about
I admit it, I have actually been ranting a lot.
Some people might take this as me being an angry person.
Yet below’s the important things. I’m not.
Certain, I can get just as pissed as anybody else.
But, normally? I am a very calm, even-keeled, positive person.
I am a timeless optimist. Very little inconveniences me.
Heck, I obtain charged of having rainbows and unicorns flashing of my ass.
Require your spirits lifted? I can get back at the most dismayed person to at the very least smile, if not laugh.
This is my gift. I can place a positive spin on whatever.
I’m a fuckin’ ray of sunlight, nearly to the point of aggravating.
Not quite there, yet practically.
But lately? All of that is gone.
I have actually been upset at the world, and the jokes don’t stream like they made use of to.
The favorable spin I utilized to throw on every little thing feels compelled now, leaving me heavier, soft, and missing out on the normal sparkle in my eyes.
However at the very least I recognize why.